Most people go to a spiritual teacher expecting to receive something. A technique. A philosophy. A set of beliefs to hold onto. They want the guru to fill them up with wisdom, to hand them the key that unlocks the next level of their existence.
Alan Watts saw it differently. He thought the real function of the guru is the opposite. The guru is not there to give you knowledge. The guru is there to take away your illusions.
This is not a comfortable role. A teacher who hands out wisdom is popular. A teacher who takes things away is not. That is why Watts called the guru a trickster. The trickster does not play by the rules you expect. The trickster does not hand you what you think you want. The trickster shows you that what you wanted was never the solution.
The guru takes away, not gives
Watts often spoke about the difference between information and transformation. Information is something you can collect. You can accumulate techniques, mantras, visualizations, and philosophical systems. You can build a library of spiritual knowledge and still be exactly where you started. You can know every teaching and still be trapped by the same illusions.
Transformation is different. It requires losing something. It requires seeing through the very structures you have been using to understand reality. It means the ground moves under your feet, and the person who was walking toward the goal suddenly realizes there is no goal and no walker.
The guru as trickster operates on this principle. The trickster figure in mythology is always a boundary-crosser. The trickster breaks rules, exposes hypocrisy, and reveals that the emperor has no clothes. In the spiritual context, the guru-trickster shows you that the self you have been trying to improve is itself the illusion.
This connects directly to what we explored in there is no ghost in your head. The feeling that there is a permanent self inside your body, a thinker behind your thoughts, is the primary illusion the guru is trying to dissolve. You are not a ghost in your head. You are not a little person behind your eyes pulling the levers. You are the process itself, the whole show, the flow of experience without a separate witness standing apart from it.
The double bind of spiritual seeking
Here is where the trickster element becomes unavoidable. The guru gives you instructions that cannot be followed by the person who is trying to follow them.
“Abandon your ego.” Who is supposed to abandon it? The very “you” that would abandon the ego is the ego. It is like trying to lift yourself by your own bootstraps. It is like trying to bite your own teeth. The instruction creates a loop that the ego cannot escape, because the ego is both the prisoner and the jailer.
Watts called this a double bind. A double bind is a situation where you are given two contradictory instructions, and there is no way out within the framework you are using. In spiritual practice, the contradiction is built into the task itself. You are told to become selfless, but the one trying to become selfless is the self you are trying to eliminate. You are told to surrender, but the one who wants to surrender is the same one who is holding on.
This is not a mistake in the teaching. It is the teaching. The double bind is designed to show you the limits of the ego’s problem-solving machinery. The ego can solve problems within its own framework, but it cannot solve the problem of itself. It can improve itself, but it cannot eliminate itself. It can become more spiritual, but it cannot become no-self.
Bodhidharma and the mind you cannot find
The Zen tradition is full of stories that illustrate this trickster logic. One of the most famous involves Bodhidharma, the monk who brought Zen from India to China.
The story goes that Bodhidharma sat in meditation facing a wall for nine years. A monk named Huike came to study with him but was turned away. Huike stood in the snow outside Bodhidharma’s cave for weeks, eventually cutting off his own arm to show his sincerity.
When Bodhidharma finally agreed to teach him, Huike asked for help pacifying his mind. He said his mind was agitated, that he could not find peace, that he needed the master to make it still.
Bodhidharma said, “Show me this mind of yours, and I will pacify it.”
Huike searched and searched. He looked for his mind, his thoughts, his feelings, his sense of self. He looked in his body, in his head, in his chest. He looked for the thing that was disturbed. He could not find it. Finally he said, “I have looked everywhere, but I cannot find it.”
Bodhidharma replied, “Then I have pacified it.”
The mind Huike was trying to pacify did not exist as a separate thing. The search itself was the agitation. The moment he stopped looking for something that was never there, the problem dissolved. The mind was never disturbed. The disturbance was the belief that there was a mind to be disturbed.
This is the trickster’s move. The guru does not give you a new mind. The guru shows you that the mind you have been worrying about is a fiction. The one who wants peace is the one creating the noise.
Who is asking the question?
Ramana Maharshi, the Indian sage, used a similar method. His central teaching was self-inquiry: ask yourself “Who am I?” But not as a philosophical puzzle to solve with the intellect. Ask it as a direct investigation into the source of the “I” thought.
When you ask “Who am I?” and follow the question back to its source, something interesting happens. The “I” that you normally take to be yourself begins to dissolve. You cannot find a solid, permanent entity behind the question. What you find instead is a field of awareness that is aware of the question itself. The awareness was there before the question, and it is there after the question. The question is just a ripple on the surface of something much deeper and quieter.
The question “Who is asking?” is a trick. It is designed to turn the seeker back on himself. The one who wants enlightenment is the obstacle to enlightenment. The one who wants peace is the one disturbing the peace. The one who wants to be free is the one holding the chains.
This is why Watts said the search itself is the obstacle. We think we need to find something. We think there is a destination, a state, an achievement. But the search is driven by the assumption that something is wrong with us right now. The search is the evidence of the very problem it claims to solve. You cannot find peace by searching for it, because the search is the opposite of peace.
The search is the obstacle
If you are seeking spiritual experience, you are doing what Watts called “trying to get something by not getting it.” You want peace, but the wanting is the disturbance. You want enlightenment, but the one who wants it is the ego that would be dissolved by it. You want to be free from the self, but the self is the one doing the wanting.
This is where the practical side comes in. Understanding the guru as trickster changes how you approach your own spiritual seeking. You stop expecting the teacher to hand you something. You stop collecting techniques and philosophies. You start looking at the seeker itself.
The seeker is the one who feels incomplete. The seeker is the one who believes there is something missing. The seeker is the one who thinks the next meditation, the next book, the next retreat will finally do the trick. But as we saw in meditation has no purpose, the moment you turn meditation into a means to an end, you have missed it. Meditation that aims at getting somewhere is just more of the same ego activity. The ego can even spiritualize itself. It can become the seeker of enlightenment, the collector of wisdom, the practitioner of virtue.
The trickster guru sees through this. The guru does not give you a better ego. The guru shows you that the ego itself is the trick.
What this means for your own practice
So how does this change your daily practice? It means you stop trying to improve yourself. You stop trying to get rid of your ego. You stop trying to become a better, more spiritual person.
This is not permission to be lazy. It is permission to see what is already here. As we wrote in you don’t need to be fixed, there is nothing fundamentally wrong with you. The feeling that you need fixing is itself the problem. The search for a better version of yourself is just the ego trying to secure its own future.
The ego is not the enemy. It is a useful trick, as we explored in ego as a useful trick. The problem is identifying with it completely, forgetting that it is an instrument rather than the player. The ego is a device the mind uses to navigate the world. It is good at planning, judging, and surviving. It is not good at being free.
When you sit down to meditate, do not sit down to get better at meditating. Sit down because sitting is what is happening. When a thought comes, do not fight it. Do not try to empty your mind. Just notice that thinking is happening. The one who wants the mind empty is the same one who wants the mind full. The effort to stop thinking is just more thinking.
You are already free. You always were. The search was just the dream that you were not.
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